Diary Entry 11/09/09

This is how I intended this blog to be all along: as a personal diary with my thoughts and comments regarding pop culture on the side, or like an appetizer, but certainly not like the main course its been the past several weeks. Let me know if you miss it and I'll incorporate it more often. Otherwise I'll mostly post entries like they were from my diary. I chose to use the term diary because it's cuter than calling it a journal. Journals are too professional and I think a diary is like inviting someone into your home, which is what I want to do; so come on in, but don't touch anything. And take your shoes off because I'm Asian.

Dear Diary,

I hope you know how lucky you are to be an electronic medium because life is fucking stressful. It's like a really long movie that only you will watch. When you're dead. Okay, I'm not really that depressed, but life has been pretty hard to handle recently. I barely have time to watch episodes of my favorite shows on Hulu over the weekend. That's how bad it is.

The other day I was in the middle of watching 30Rock on my laptop when the lights went out for a few minutes. I was so scared because I was staying in the house by myself and right before the power went out I was in the middle of a really funny scene with Tina Fey (of course, she's hilarious) as well as cooking food on the stove.The stove was still hot and I could've burnt myself to death (not very realistic, but trust me, when you're scared in the dark you think of all possibilities). Also the dog was hanging out somewhere in the next room and I could've tripped over him and died. Even better, since I was on the verge of screaming because there was also thunder and lightning outside, the dog could've not recognized me in the dark and tore me up thinking I'm was an intruder or something. But that's not even the worst part. The worst part is that even though I was terrified of all those possibilities, my main concern at the time was that I had to restart my laptop and reload the episode of 30Rock I was watching, which would have taken about 10 minutes, which is 10 minutes of time I would have to wait to continue watching my show. Yeah. You know you're lonely when you care about TV that much.

It's so distracting. I have a lot of distractions in my life and I think that's the cause of all my stress. I probably would have enough time to study and work and to keep up with everything if I wasn't so distracted all the time. Also over the past week I've been having cravings for photoshoots. I would sit somewhere and look outside, or hear a song, or see a stranger walk by and feel this need to have my picture taken. At first I thought that it was because I've been catching up on Top Model, but I've been following Top Model on and off for years. Then I realized that it's because I'm Asian. Okay, I know I blame that on everything, but I really think I'm on to something this time so hear me out. I think it's like a biological clock or something that Asians have in their genes. It goes off every once in a while without notice and a photoshoot is the only way to satisfy it. I've always wondered why real Asians (as in Asian from Asia, not Asian American like me) have cameras permanantly attached to their necklines. THIS IS WHY!

The mystery is solved. Now if I can figure out how to manage my time, I might be able to do well in my classes this quarter. G2G, Diary. I have a midterm in 3 days. 

PS: Photoshoot pictures either already are or will be shortly uploaded to facebook.